Confusion.

So I don't understand how you can meet someone, spend a lot of time with them since then, him offer you the keys to his apartment, him tell you he likes you...but he still wants to be single. Why does this happen to me every single time. This is the exact reason I don't date because all boys are shady. No one can commit they just want to have fun and still have the time to fuck around on the side. Not cool boys, not cool.

Anyways other than that things are finally going good here. I made a lot of new friends from work, and I work 6 days a week. Today was my first day off since I started so I spent the day at Adams while he was at work and now I am finally home. I need to clean my shit and take a shower and just enjoy relaxing. The only really weird thing is that it seems like no one I hang out is really the type of people I normally would and they really don't understand my lifestyle. They don't judge me for it and still love me just ask a lot of questions about my friends, my music, and the stuff I do. It's strange because things are so much different here then I am used to. No one seems to be like "me" as everyone I work with explains. So many people asked if I was lesbian by the way I looked haha, I just laughed and said not in the slightest bit. People are funny, but it does not really matter because they still love me haha.

Lonely

I feel lonely...

I want to find love in Florida. I want to find someone who cares.

Girlie songs make me sad.

The Beginning of a Year

I have decided, even though 13 days too late, to start a 2009 blog. I am determined to make this year better than 2008 was. I was not very happy last year, and I now have a fresh start and am going to make the best of it.

I have gone from a this/a bad relationship last year....
To the strong young women i am today, Happy even though Lonely. Strong minded and willed...


I have grown and learned not to let other people change me into what they want. I need to be my own person and grow for my own good. I have been on my own a year now and have grown so much.

I am going to try to update with a few sentences every day. Every day starts something new in my life and I am grateful for it.